What I ate today: 1 yoghurt, nachos, alot of sweets and some chips.

I'm gonna gain like 10 pounds by tomorrow. And I have just started the starving. I'm such a loser! I can't even starve! Why did this happen? Why did it have to be right now? When some of my old pants has started to fit again. Some of they I used when I was about 95 pounds... But unfortunately I have a long way to go before my pants when I was down to 65 pounds will fit, and if I continue to eat like this I don't think I ever will reach that goal.

Anyway, been at a party tonight. Was ok... But I couldn't drink since I had been eating so much earlier, too many calories... and I don't like to lose controll either... I have a bad habit about drinking a bit too much when I drink, and thats not so cool. And when I have started to be really drunk I always start cutting or something. I don't want to expose my friends for that anymore.

Take care!

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